February already...

Ok..I promised, more blog this year. My goal is at least once a month, so I am getting behind..

I am on a new Adventure..I have decided somewhere along the way, probably a mid-life crisis, but oh well..That I needed to do something. I needed to be someone. Now, at first I think it was just something to get me out of the .."I am not a normal, Mormon Mommy with a lot of kids" person. I mean, There is nothing wrong with that, and I am sure if my reproductive organs functioned correctly, I would have more kids, but that just isin't gonna happen, so I decided what is it that I am all about, I have one kid in school all day, and one in pre-school, and in a matter of a few short years he will be gone too..then what..Just sit and clean the toilets all day..fold laundry, mop, dust..if any of you know me..you will know, that is not my favorite past time, especially the toilets..lol..I mean there is only so much housework one can do before they lose their minds.

I am 33, I think I can safely say that my dreams of taking over the music world, probably have to come to an end. lol..

so what I love second to music is...FOOD...Hello, of course, that's why I gained so much weight for so long..Mama loves to eat..I could watch the food network 24 hours a day, and the cooking channel..mmm..

Anyhoo, long story short, I decided to open a little biz..you know baking and such, who knows what will happen, probably nothing..but at least I have a goal..

and as my husband was talking about it at work, like he does (big mouth) I have had 2 cake orders, that I fulfilled last week, and they actually paid me to make them..I have to admit that was pretty cool..money for baked goods..yum...and the baked goods don't sit at my house, waiting for me to eat them all and put back the 40lbs that I have lost..so it's a start..I have another order for the end of February..We will see how it works out. I love to be in the kitchen, so might as well put it to good use. :)

I know I really probably got a little to wordy here, sorry..but here are a few pics of my cakes, not a pro or anything..but I am going to be taking some cake decoration classes, just to get the more professional look, can't wait to get my hands on some fondant..:)

I struggle with the thought sometimes, or at least I have, that my worth is not as great as someone who can bring lots of kids into the world, that maybe I am just not good, or at least not good enough, but in more of my tender moments that I have, I realize that it's not a competition down here, who can have the most babies..that we are all different, and have different talents, trials, desires, but that we are ALL precious in his eyes, and he knows what our mission is here, and mine is different than others, but it is no less important.

Not that baking is a mission or anything..lol, just thinking out loud, all I am trying to say, is we all contribute in different ways to this world, and for Today, I am happy to be me. (of course this attitude of enlightenment could all change tomorrow) :)

lots of love friends and family..xoxoxo